Disjointed thoughts of a tired mom

    So,  I've wanted to blog for days,  but am SOOO tired.  AG started feeling better after med and nap Monday,  but sleep hasn't gone so well.  Other post adoptive parents say jetlag can last up to a month.  I'm dealing with it too.  This am,  was up till 3am!  So not really possible to get into any kind of routine.  Chinese gma and gpa came a few hours today and allowed me to make phone calls re.  TB status.  AG had neg.  TB test 9/09,  and then was given TB vaccine--bad idea,  but normal in China.  it causes false positive TB tests.  We needed chest xray in China,  and now followup with public health as their office in customs at airport is closed on Saturdays--when we returned.  So many calls and over an hour later,  have a plan for clearing her.  Maybe it is just that i'm returning to toddler hood,  and need to get in the groove and getting things done,  or more likely that when you transplant a 4 yo into your home,  it is more time consuming than a homegrown 4 yo,  but there is so little time in the day.  I did expect and was ready for much upheaval,  but the reality still is not easy.  I'm going to give it a month, and hope some normalcy comes.  
     good things--AG continues to be a sweety--falling asleep is hard,  but always wakes up happy.  She is funny, she obeys fairly well,  she knows limits--such as no biting,  kicking,  putting fingers in outlets.  She prays before meals so beautifully.  She greets new people without fear,  and with friendliness,  but still knows that mommy and daddy are the special ones!!  She was raised so well in her foster home,  and loved so well--we are forever grateful and blessed. We do want to try to keep her bilngual,  which I am guessing will slow down her English acquisition.  Pa tries to speak exclusively mandarin,  and his parents happily do,  and we try to call them every day so AG can speak to them.  I speak simple commands in mandarin fairly easily.  But she is really a smart girl, it is sad I cannot converse with her as I would an English speaker.  How much i should be teaching her English,  or reinforcing mandarin is a juggling act that we don't know answer to right now.  
    We go to doctor for 1st check up tomorrow.  hope it goes well--i'm expecting it to. cleft lip/cleft palate doctors next week.
     Things I miss: time for me,  exercising,  only having narrow window of time to get out and do anything.
     things I miss about China:  only needing to focus on AG,  not having to run a household.
     Things I love about being home:  flowers--all over, especially MY tulips,  daffodils,  magnolias.  Blue sky!!  this is a big one--no blue sky--ever,  that I saw in China--smog.  yes parts were very beautiful,  but no blue sky or fluffy clouds.  I also love to see houses--instead of concrete apts. everywhere, not having to live out of a suitcase. 
     Things I do not miss about China:  squat toilets--really hard when helping a toddler,  having to boil water before drinking it--but you do get in a routine--boil before bed,  fill water bottles for next day,  put in fridge, always keep water in glass to drink, so you don't forget and use tap. We did have a reverse osmosis filter at last hotel--that was nice.  
Cigarette smoking EVERYWHERE!!  You actually get used to it,  so when we were given a smoking suite at our last hotel,  didn't notice till next day when I saw ashtrays!  It permeates everything in China.  In US,  someone can be outside,  25 feet away,  and I am bothered by smoke,  but not in China!  
      well it is 12:15am,  should try to get to sleep,  last night Ag was up till 12:30,  so improvement--about 11 or so tonight.  2 nights ago she woke at 12 and was up 2 hours.  I'll be glad when that stops.